June 24, 2013,
Just tired today, maybe a little depressed. I don't know. I should have left for my dad's house this morning. Maybe later today, if not definately tomorrow morning. I need to get out of this funk. I need to get out of my own head.
I am looking forward to seeing this new doctor, They are suppose to call me with an appointment.
I want to know what are my treatment options?
How long can I wait for treatment?
Is the treatment as bad as everything I have read? 48 weeks? Horrible side effects?
Can I be cured and freed from this ?
How will I be able to work?
Is worker's comp going to really cover all of my bills?
I do not ever want to hear again that nurses make too much money, we do not make enough, we really do NOT. Not when you risk your own health to care for people. For people who dont even care about themselves or the people taking care of them.
Monday, June 24, 2013
Saturday, June 22, 2013
June 22, 2013,
So I was told to keep track of my symptoms, but I feel like I am going crazy, is this all in my head. I did not have all of the classic signs, fulminating hepatitis is now being thrown around. Right now I am just so tired.
I did manage to get my kitchen floor mopped and a load of clothes washed, yay, tomorrow I hope to bath my dogs. Then I took a 3 hour nap, my neighbor called and woke me up, for which I am very grateful.
I know I am still processing all of this ...why me? Why? I worry about going to work, what if I mess something up? Maybe I worry too much. I know it has only been 2 weeks since I found out. Part of me I am grateful for knowing. Because when I was not feeling well back in April and May, I really thought I was losing my mind.
But now, every little itch, indigestion, joint pain or ache....in the back of my mind...is that nasty virus replicating over and over?
Positive thinking, yeah I have to laugh at that, I was postive there was no way I was going to convert, absolutely not..no way. Never even thought about it again.
Don't get me wrong, last week I felt pretty good, no aches , no pains. I was like yes, I feel great! I got my rose bush in the ground, poor thing had been sitting for about a month just waiting to be planted.
By the time I was ready for bed, I was achy.
So slap myself silly, but I did stop taking motrin and tylenol, I do not want to put anything in my body that could cause any damage to my liver, even in the smallest amounts. So yes I may have some aches and pains.
And I hate bitchin about it too
So I was told to keep track of my symptoms, but I feel like I am going crazy, is this all in my head. I did not have all of the classic signs, fulminating hepatitis is now being thrown around. Right now I am just so tired.
I did manage to get my kitchen floor mopped and a load of clothes washed, yay, tomorrow I hope to bath my dogs. Then I took a 3 hour nap, my neighbor called and woke me up, for which I am very grateful.
I know I am still processing all of this ...why me? Why? I worry about going to work, what if I mess something up? Maybe I worry too much. I know it has only been 2 weeks since I found out. Part of me I am grateful for knowing. Because when I was not feeling well back in April and May, I really thought I was losing my mind.
But now, every little itch, indigestion, joint pain or ache....in the back of my mind...is that nasty virus replicating over and over?
Positive thinking, yeah I have to laugh at that, I was postive there was no way I was going to convert, absolutely not..no way. Never even thought about it again.
Don't get me wrong, last week I felt pretty good, no aches , no pains. I was like yes, I feel great! I got my rose bush in the ground, poor thing had been sitting for about a month just waiting to be planted.
By the time I was ready for bed, I was achy.
So slap myself silly, but I did stop taking motrin and tylenol, I do not want to put anything in my body that could cause any damage to my liver, even in the smallest amounts. So yes I may have some aches and pains.
And I hate bitchin about it too
my journey with hep c
June 22, 2013
My life changed in less than 2 seconds on April 4, 2013. I hadn't realized it at the time. But now 11 weeks later I am learning of just how much my life has changed and will be changed.
April 4th was any ordinary day, off to work another busy day in the Er. Our Er is alway's busy. Then I met my next patient, I cannot even remember his name. I am glad that I cannot remember his name. I do not know why, but I am.
He was a bugger to put it nicely, actually he was pretty demanding wanting his dilaudid, insisting where the IV should be inserted. He "knew" exactly where it should go, I try to accomodate my patients, his years of IVDA took a toll on his veins. I had no luck inserting his IV and as I told him, I was not having any luck, that I was going to stop and get someone else to look, he said okay pulled his arm away , rolled onto his right side and kicked the angio into my right index finger, like a dart. All the way in. And then he laughed and said "You didnt say dont move"
I went right to work health, blood drawn, I was negative on all counts Hiv, Hep b , Hep c. He had Hep c.
My chances of acquiring hep c was 1.8%. Well in my mind I had a 98.2% of NOT acquiring Hep c.
I did not give it another thought, went about my nornal routines, work , home , sleep.
I started not to feel well, nothing specific, no belly pain, no jaundice. Fatigue , muscle and joint pain, but Our Er had expanded and most of us are logging 8 to 10 miles a day just walking this new big ER. It is hard work. My days off I spent on the sofa 'resting' so I could work again on my scheduled days.
Then the headaches started, I have had migraines in the past, work is stressful. But these migraines were different. One sided, sharp pain shooting across my head, behind my eyes. I have seen a neurologist for migraines in the past, he is friend , I had not seen him as a patient for several years. I tried to deal with the headaches, until the day I smelled lilacs , followed a few minutes later by a pain in my head so sharp and painful it stopped me in my tracks. That scared me enough to call my friend and make a appointment.
In the meantime, I decided it was time to get myself a family MD, I had no family Md, no one. That proved more difficult being set up as a new patient.
In my mind, I was just getting older, probably be a good idea to have a check up anyway. My dad has been on me for the last several years. "Kiddo you need to get yourself a doctor, what if you get sick?"
Never once did I connect the symtoms....I have an invader in my body, replicating itself over and over and over, taking up residence in my liver, making a home.
And then the itching...my scalp was itching , this insane itching, I swore I had lice, after all I work in a Er, families come in with the complaint of Lice. My feet would itch, my face would itch. My lips became so dry and cracked I thought I was in the desert and then I developed a fever blister, something I dont ever remembering having
My repeat blood draw was 5/17 at work health. On June 7th, 3 weeks after the blood draw, I found out I had Hep c, the virus was in me, replicating, wreaking havoc on my body.
see a later post where I explain why it was 3 weeks before I found out I sero converted to Hep c, note I found our, never said I was notified.
My life changed in less than 2 seconds on April 4, 2013. I hadn't realized it at the time. But now 11 weeks later I am learning of just how much my life has changed and will be changed.
April 4th was any ordinary day, off to work another busy day in the Er. Our Er is alway's busy. Then I met my next patient, I cannot even remember his name. I am glad that I cannot remember his name. I do not know why, but I am.
He was a bugger to put it nicely, actually he was pretty demanding wanting his dilaudid, insisting where the IV should be inserted. He "knew" exactly where it should go, I try to accomodate my patients, his years of IVDA took a toll on his veins. I had no luck inserting his IV and as I told him, I was not having any luck, that I was going to stop and get someone else to look, he said okay pulled his arm away , rolled onto his right side and kicked the angio into my right index finger, like a dart. All the way in. And then he laughed and said "You didnt say dont move"
I went right to work health, blood drawn, I was negative on all counts Hiv, Hep b , Hep c. He had Hep c.
My chances of acquiring hep c was 1.8%. Well in my mind I had a 98.2% of NOT acquiring Hep c.
I did not give it another thought, went about my nornal routines, work , home , sleep.
I started not to feel well, nothing specific, no belly pain, no jaundice. Fatigue , muscle and joint pain, but Our Er had expanded and most of us are logging 8 to 10 miles a day just walking this new big ER. It is hard work. My days off I spent on the sofa 'resting' so I could work again on my scheduled days.
Then the headaches started, I have had migraines in the past, work is stressful. But these migraines were different. One sided, sharp pain shooting across my head, behind my eyes. I have seen a neurologist for migraines in the past, he is friend , I had not seen him as a patient for several years. I tried to deal with the headaches, until the day I smelled lilacs , followed a few minutes later by a pain in my head so sharp and painful it stopped me in my tracks. That scared me enough to call my friend and make a appointment.
In the meantime, I decided it was time to get myself a family MD, I had no family Md, no one. That proved more difficult being set up as a new patient.
In my mind, I was just getting older, probably be a good idea to have a check up anyway. My dad has been on me for the last several years. "Kiddo you need to get yourself a doctor, what if you get sick?"
Never once did I connect the symtoms....I have an invader in my body, replicating itself over and over and over, taking up residence in my liver, making a home.
And then the itching...my scalp was itching , this insane itching, I swore I had lice, after all I work in a Er, families come in with the complaint of Lice. My feet would itch, my face would itch. My lips became so dry and cracked I thought I was in the desert and then I developed a fever blister, something I dont ever remembering having
My repeat blood draw was 5/17 at work health. On June 7th, 3 weeks after the blood draw, I found out I had Hep c, the virus was in me, replicating, wreaking havoc on my body.
see a later post where I explain why it was 3 weeks before I found out I sero converted to Hep c, note I found our, never said I was notified.
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