Drained

I am so tired today, I have not written in weeks, I havent slept in weeks, a few hours a night. I cry alot. My mind just races. My repeat PCR came back 1.2 million. Higher than the first one drawn in May. I need treatment. I knew something was not right, I knew I was not feeling good. I knew I felt sick, weak , tired . But I have to finish the events of what happened and what is happening to me. I was not notified of my results, I did make an appt. with a family doctor, one my neighbor and friend reccommended. I could not get a appointment until June 12 or 13, I cant really remember, all the appts are confusing now. My neurolgist called, MRI/MRA was normal, just some inflamnation showed up in my labs, make sure I take copies to my new primary MD. On June 6, 2013, I did ask my charge Rn if it would be okay for me to print out my labs , and she had known I was not feeling well. "Sure why not they are your labs" was her reply . I finally had started to feel just a little better. I had just gotten home from a vacation. I didnt do anything, but relax. Had not done anything at home either. My house was messy to say the least. I accomplished nothing in my backyard, people that know me, know what my gardens mean to me, they know how much I love to garden, it is one of my passions. I printed out my results never looked at them, took them home. About 11 pm I worked 9am to 930pm, I pulled them from my bag, and found the PCR from 5/17 was included in the labs I printed, when I printed my labs, I somehow had printed out 24 hours, I am glad I did, I may not have ever know I converted. My PCR was 1.1 million. I called work health the next morning, June 7th, was told to come right in, I did and I was promptly reprimanded by the NP, for at least the first 10 minutes, I was devaasted, fighting back tears. Even our employee health nurse, his face he was astonished at how she was speaking to me "Who do you think you are? "You can be fired for this", "The person that told you that you could print these out can be fired too". It was horrible. Anyway, I finally stopped the NP, and told her I thought I coming to be counseled and treated for hepatatis, the way I see it , my treatment has been delayed by a minimum of 2weeks, that is giving a 1 week for the PCR to come back, can you tell me how long does it take for these results? I was told it takes a week. Fact is it takes 2 to 3 days. My last PCR was drawn on a Friday, resulted on Monday. And, as she was screaming at me, I kept thinking of a nursing friend of mine, who converted to hep c while employed at this same hospital. She wss beautiful, generous, she was an angel. She could not prove she acquire hep c via her employment. She taught me alot. They put her thru so many horrible questions it was disgraceful. She took her own life. I cannot get her out of my mind, what they did to her, was wrong. Now they are attempting to do it to me. I have been accused of using IV drugs, of already being hep c positive. "you got sick too quick" Reported to the commonwealth of PA as a right index finger injury, not a occupational disease. I have to stop for awhile, kinda achy, getting a little upset again, I always wanted to be a nurse, I never dreamed this would happen, this is a nightmare, I wish I could sleep